All I Had
I think that you give
Not enough for me to live
Don't you think that you have
More than enough for everyone (to live)?
I gave all I had
and now it's mine
[ unreleased 1999 ] ¶
Coming Down
He's still not getting it
He still got no job
Still got to sit at home
Still got to pay his mom
No responsibility
Just hiding himself
It's not such a bad thing
No, it's the worst
When everything's coming down
We'll be standing up
We'll never hit the ground
We keep our heads right up
He's still not getting it
he still got no job
It's not such a bad thing
No, it's the worst
And it's not even a little mistake
No, it's the cause
Even if you don't agree
It's the system or it's me!
When everything's coming down...
[ Sofa So Good 2003 ] ¶
Description
I like to look around, I like to watch life passing me by,
I always sit around, and then I feel my emotions die
I sometimes feel alone, and wonder for the worst to come
But when I'm on my own, I recognize the faults that I've done
I want to give myself a description of what I feel
Sometimes I ask myself How Do I Feel?
I like to get to know how can these thoughts keep me down,
I would like you to know I beg for pardon when I'm on my own
Again I wonder why How can I deal with my mind?
I like to run away, but where to go? I don't know what to find
I want to...
[ Love Isn't Brains, Children... 2001/Demo 2000 ] ¶
Dreamhouse
Hunting my dreamhouse, it's overrun
I'm not invited, so I won't come
I know all the parties, so I just watch
I never felt alien, not at all too much
If you would be there, I'll never know
I'm just wondering, how can I show...
Sometimes alone is good for me
It's never been shown and hard to see
Hunting the dreamhouse is overcome
I will not go there, it's too overrun
I will be waiting inside this room
Never felt alien this way too soon...
This time too soon I'm going home
Too hard for me to see you go
If this was the last chance to talk to you
I should have better done what I do
Just watching you talk the whole night away
While I know that I can't make you stay
Stay with me
[ Love Isn't Brains, Children... 2001 ] ¶
Fairy Tale
Today another letter came
I'm glad to hear from you
Don't even feel like reading it:
Your boyfriend, your convictions,
The records you bought so long ago
And the lack of real spice in your life
It's not my fault
That my life went on
While yours has stopped
Where we once left
We're gonna play a show
In the city that you live in
I don't think I will give you a call
I guess you don't even know
You don't even know our name
Not to speak of these four friends of mine
It's not my fault...
[ Sofa So Good 2003 ] ¶
Friends And Girls And You
We can't talk today, there's nothing left to say.
I remember it was different when we met here yesterday.
What happened to those days when we used to be as one
And the little smile you saved for me was brighter than the sun.
I'd better bitten my lip, maybe I should have faked a smile
But I know you know me well enough to see through my disguise.
So here we are today with our friendships broken seal
And all that we can do is wait for bleeding wounds to heal.
All the numbers I wrote down
On all the kiss-me-cards I found
Will never add up to the one
That never let me hit the ground.
Another girl will come, a kiss, a warm embrace.
But every kiss is colder than the one I'll never taste.
We can't talk today, but maybe that's okay,
Cause summer always sweeps away all winter's tragedy.
All the numbers...
I need pills to keep my head from aching.
cause all these thoughts just keep me up all night.
I need kicks to keep my mind from thinking
and all my friends to give me strength to fight.
I need girls to keep my heart from breaking
even though I know it's already too late.
I need you to keep my life from sinking,
and I know that I can love you as a friend.
[ Love Isn't Brains, Children... 2001 ] ¶
Girl Upstairs
I was longing for a caress from you
I wanted to stay beside you - but that time was up to you
The sun is shining in any other place but here
You want to be there. Not with me, that was my fear...
I stayed in my room, waiting for your call.
You were late as always. I'm gonna fall...
I have to see you five days a week
The first one's over, that's okay, at least for me.
You left me here. With myself.
You're gone away. What's left to say?
I wanna be sarcastic. Oh, how nice you look!
But instead I shake like I never shook.
We still have things to talk about.
But if you would regret it, I would never know...
I'm still waiting for the answers.
You know the questions. It's your turn...
[ Love Isn't Brains, Children... 2001 ] ¶
Grey Christmas
Blinking lights in their windows
Make me want to go back home
But nothing good on TV
"Rudolph, the black-eye reindeer"
Wanna throw things at their happy faces
Turkey-stuffed family reunions
Comb your hair for the photo
And let them all choke on egg nog
Maybe I'm just being jealous
Cause I never get the gifts I want
Things were easy when I was a child
Joy was always as big as the presents
These days' only purpose
Is to make me see once more
How another year of my life
Slipped right through my hands
Christmas day
Smile-at-assholes day
Rather ignore that day
So let's better get away
You're staying at your parents' too
While I'd rather be with you
Three days of forced attention
Don't pay for a lonely childhood
Waking up to a grey Christmas
There's only rain and never snow
So Bing Crosby's just a racist
And I'm dreaming of the summer sun...
Christmas day...
I'm waiting
to go home
and wait for
a new year
rain falling
I'm running
I'm falling
I'm hiding
Christmas day...
[ We want our Coffee black and our Christmas white! 2003 ] ¶
Heartbreak Champ
God knows I tried so hard last night
But still I woke up empty and alone
My T-shirt says I'm a champion
Never felt so far from being one
As the weekend's little heartaches start to fade
And it's okay if you can't be with me today
Tonight once more I'll cleanse my mind off you
And it's alright for me to take you home tonight
But the girl I told this line just saw me through
Thinking of the times we've spent
ALL's break-up record brings them back to mind
Not that I ever broke up with you
Not that I ever had the chance to
Not that I ever think about you when I listen to these songs
And it's okay...
[ Sofa So Good 2003 ] ¶
Heritage
We've seen a lot of things
We've seen a lot of shows
We'be seen a lot of bands
come and go
We're not trying to restart
We're trying to be part
of a Sound that guided us
that led our hearts
Thank you still
for the songs you
played for us
We know there's so much more
than a wall to break down
We need to go ahead
before we start to drown
Thank you still
for the songs
you played for us
It's our reference to you!
[ Demo 2000] ¶
Insight
(I'm) aggregated - I know
I clench my fist - and I go
It was my mistake - you're right
I know but I - just can't change
I went downstairs, the lights went on
I felt too insecure to move along
My life is not how you see it
I know what I'm able to, but I can't believe it
Tell me sweet lies I don't want to hear
I had the time to open my eyes
I'll have to see you again, now and then
I'm gonna laugh with you (if I can)
Anyway - I'm gonna stay -
Make the most out of everyday.
[ Love Isn't Brains, Children... 2001/Demo 2000 ] ¶
Insurance
Another trend is set
And again it's not what we're about
We're not your product
Accept that we can't be bought
You pump your money into artificial puppets
Who bleek their teeth on our TV screens
We sing our heart out, we get our fuel by those who dance
Too many one hit wonders while we try to build and care
We don't need your structures
We built and save on our own
We won't be artificial
I say we can't be wrong
You pump your money...
"Hey Mr. Superstar, Do you really think we care?
You think you're saying something
We think you're fucking nothing
Your message is killed by the pay-cheque in your hand
It's already hard at work as your machine destroys..."
You pump your money...
[ Sofa So Good 2003 ] ¶
In Your Dreams
She's not the one I'm dreaming of...
She used to be but I'm not having any nightmares anymore
I'm not the one to beat you up...
But I am dreaming of it night and day
Whenever I can be around
I'm gonna make you scream and shout
If I will find a way to make you bleed
I'm gonna use it all around
I learned to hate you not too much
But I'm making fun of you whenever I can
If I could be your perfect dream
I'd turn into a nightmare just to make you scream!
Whenever I can be around...
You were the one to hurt me
The one to kick me
Now I'm the one to hurt you
I'll be in every of your dreams
When you fall asleep
Then I'm with you
I'll be your nightmare
'cause you're in my dreams, too...
[ Sofa So Good 2003 ] ¶
Last Goodbye
Thought I'd lost you without any reason
Sure I don't know you
I talked while you were sitting still
(My last goodbye)
I thought I'd love you anyway
(My last goodbye to you)
Without any reason
(My last goodbye forever)
I have gone away today
(My last goodbye to you)
you're still there
I am not an angel, don't even look like one
Sometimes I kick your ass
And break your heart for fun
But at most times I feel sick…
with a good reason:
Never meant to hurt you anyway
But I did
Are we gonna be as one?
Will it still be so much fun?
When we sit around for hours
And talk the night away
Tell me, is breaking up so much fun?
This is my last goodbye to you!
[ Love Isn't Brains, Children... 2001 ] ¶
Lifetime Long Long Time Gone
I'm not writing to you
Just for myself
We know what we had
We know what we shared
The last time we met
I was killed by the brew
(you know that)
Do you wanna play hardball with me?
A lifetime long
Gone, since we met
(Can you see I'm down on my knees
Live my life without you
Or anyone)
We went our separate ways
Different direction
Every time I see you
I've got to think it through
But it happens only in those few empty days...
Do you wanna play...
[ Love Isn't Brains, Children... 2001 ] ¶
Mean
One of those days again
I'm writing too slow
to let my thoughts get in
this piece of paper I wanna fill
All the songs have been written
some time ago
And they're not mine
I love them still
And I'm still listening to them, trying to understand
what they mean to me
They figured it out while I'm trying to find out
what they mean to me
One day I'm gonna write a song
they have to understand
They're gonna like it - like I like all of theirs
But it will take some time
to find out - what I'm gonna write about
And I'm still...
If I don't understand it right
You won't understand mine
Get out, start your own
Show me what you mean...
And I'm still...
[ Love Isn't Brains, Children... 2001/Demo 2000 ] ¶
Mine's Left Burning
It's the seventh day I'm alone now,
I still can't understand
The end came unexpected,
Just when I thought it'd never come
Now I'm sitting here in this cellar
That used to be my room
And everything's so unfamiliar
Without you
I remember the moment
You aimed your gun at my high hopes
With words like bullets...
As I tried so hard not to cry
Free fall into a world without you,
A million miles above the ground
I try to close my eyes
But you're still there, you're everywhere -
The air I breathe is still so full of you
Back then I felt this could be forever
But now I know that I was wrong
From what was once our love
Only mine's left burning
And your memory still fans the flames
[ Love Isn't Brains, Children... 2001/Demo 2000 ] ¶
No Home
I will be standing strong
I will not move along
I know a place where we can hide
and safely be as one
You say that you have come
with all your work undone
You closed the door to where
you can feel safe and clean and warm
Where it's clean and warm...
There is no place where you can feel at home
No matter what you say your will won't come
One day you'll realize
You better think of twice
You'll have to take a stand
Which means you you have to choose one side
It's a long way to go
and there's no turning back
One day I´m gonna move my home
and take it back from you
When it's clean and warm...
There is no place...
[ Sofa So Good 2003 ] ¶
Patrick The Mole
He was in love with some god
that I never really understood
tried to be as religious as he was
but I could never be that good
and he...
Patrick kills himself
it just blows him away
Patrick kills himself
when I work for ground
One night he started floating away
where I fought for ground
Now his face has disappeared
when I thought I'd found
that he...
Patrick kills himself...
Worn out clothes and shoes in holes
Bleeding fingers, bleeding nose
He took his glasses off at shows
You can't hear enough of those
Patrick kills himself
[ Sofa So Good 2003 ] ¶
Pay Cheque (Heritage II)
It seems I'm not the youngest anymore
Well, I could lean back and relax some more
Have a cigarette and start to reflect
Should start paying back to even the score
And you know where you came from
And you know why you have done this song
And you know what you can't stand
And I know what...
I will not forget, I will not regret
I'll always remind myself
I'm not gonna stop stop, I'll always fight back
I always pay my cheque
Well I can listen to these records on and on
And I have mentioned how much I love
With a cigarette and another drink
Now I can sing out what I have to give
And you know where you came from...
[ Sofa So Good 2003 ] ¶
Postscript
I've spent half my life not listening to you
tried everything not to please you at all.
But today I know you still loved me.
Seems we're better friends since you're gone.
I watch myself fooling around,
breaking promises and hearts,
days of joy and nights of sorrow -
(tell me) what would you say now?
Would you like my girlfriend?
Would you come to our shows?
Would you be proud of your son?
I remember the time your face got earnest:
"I'm older now than my father got."
I still wonder if I'll ever have to see the day
that I'm the one to say that to a child of mine.
Will we ever meet again
and will we be friends then?
So many times I didn't talk to you,
so many things I'd like to tell you now.
Would you...
I don't know if you can hear me -
this song is for no one but you.
Would you like my girlfriend?
Would you come to our shows?
Would you be proud of your son?
Would I even care?
[ Love Isn't Brains, Children... 2001 ] ¶
This Song
So now we're back, back on track -
but not together as we used to be
In the same room but far apart -
Apathy where once the fire warmed our hearts
And I wonder what you think
when you see me standing there
There's so much I want to tell you
but you don't even seem to care
The night's too long, I can't go home,
I hear the laughter in the air around you
Congratulations, you seem okay -
Don't care about me cause I'll be fine someday
And I'm asking myself why
I'm still wondering what you feel
But disappointment guides my search
for the path that's leading right away from you
This song can't say
everything you broke in me
But this chord shall ring in your ears
until I cried my last tear for you
[ Love Isn't Brains, Children... 2001/Demo 2000 ] ¶
Time To Share
Forgotten feelings
I can't get them out of my head
Now It's too late
Sunken memories
The times we all lived through
Are still in the back of my head
We have a past to share
We made a good look then
I got some pictures of you
And those times that we lived through
Heartbreaking moments
Inside those walls we love
In that we dance
Our eyes have met
Those times we won't forget
That we still have
We have a past to share...
Someone I might know as well as myself
Could cross my path
Someone that might know as well as I do
Could make me feel as one, again
We have a past to share...
[ We want our Coffee black and our Christmas white! 2003 ] ¶
Town With No River
When I walk the streets at night
Like blood running through my veins
There's nothing but me and the rain
I can hear the houses whisper
So many corners have seen me hang my head
The pavement often caught my tears
Look into the emptiness of black windows
They could tell you much about me
This city is mine
I feel it inside of me
It's my history
Sad story
Just another local girl came along
And broke my heart
Everynight I yearn for someone
(But again) I kissed no one, not even a bottle
This city...
So I walk the streets at night
Trying to live on in concrete solitude
My house is black and the walls are dumb
They listen to me and keep all my secrets
This city...
[ Sofa So Good 2003 ] ¶
28th
I'm twenty-seven now
And I'm still growing up
Even grey-haired I will be your fool
I'd like to ask you out
But you don't call me back
It seems like my quest must go on
OK, I learned a lot
Even how to smile
When your appearance makes want to leave
Have you ever been alone
And been so afraid
That you didn't even want to speak it out
You took me one step down
I'm taking two as one
Even when you're gone I will be there
I'm not the one to change your world
In two or three or four guitar chords
You may have heard before
OK, I learned a lot
We're not the ones to change your world
In two or three or four guitar chords
You may have heard before
[ Sofa So Good 2003 ] ¶
Waiting For The Day
You say this and I say that
You close your eyes and go to bed
We could have so much more to say
We decide to give it to another day
I can't sleep, so I do think
I get up and get another drink
I'll have some more time to spend
So I'm waiting for the next weekend
Waiting for the day
that we'll find our way
Now I realize what went wrong
And with that I'm not so strong
The opposite, I feel so weak
In the mirror I punch the geek
I'll build up myself again
I'll stop and leave this train
Until the day it starts again
When it's time to win this game
Waiting for the day...
[ Love Isn't Brains, Children... 2001/Demo 2000 ] ¶
